Wednesday Word 5.31.17

Psalm 34:18 New International Version 

18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Or, as paraphrased in The Message, “If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there; if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath.”  David spoke from experience.  So do I.

When I was twenty, there came a time when I felt so utterly alone and completely lost.  The shock of sudden loss, betrayal, and guilt that I had been powerless to save the life of someone I cared for overwhelmed me and clouded my judgement.  I didn’t think I could put one foot in front of the other. I didn’t think I could stand to breathe anymore.  In the very moments that I had drawn this terrible conclusion, a car pulled out in front of me.  I swerved violently, as I was driving quite fast.  It was terrifying.  As soon as I regained control and realized what had happened, I began laughing hysterically.  If indeed my time had come, all I had to do was let that car hit me broadside.  No one would have ever known what I had been thinking.  It would have solved all my problems.  But I didn’t let him hit me.  Instinctively, I chose to live.  I knew it was God, right then and there.   That careless driver was at the right place at that split second to jolt me from the stupor I had fallen into, while God shouted, “Live!” And I did. No matter what happened after that moment, I never felt alone again.

Four years later, I met Dan and we began our life together. I cannot imagine how we could have faced all of the difficult times in our lives without the certain knowledge that God was there. During the loss of family we loved, lay-offs and financial uncertainty, all the other scary and painful challenges of life, I have felt God close by at all times.  We have a bad habit of only crying out for him in our pain. Amazingly enough, he will always answer.  We may be so preoccupied that we don’t always hear his response.  His response may not be what we anticipated.  But it will always come.  Trust that he is there. Even when we are the authors of our own trials, God is still with us.   As David said in Psalm 32:10, “…the Lord’s unfailing love surrounds the one who trusts in him.”…something to pray about.

Your sister in Christ, Vicki